The incident left me emotional and broken. I did not want to be involved in anything that needed me to engage with other people, even in the church. I avoided joining any groups and preferred to keep to myself. I was so insecure that I even hated the way I looked. I only thought about the bad things that people said about me. It was almost like I found comfort in crying or in the pain.
In the church, I took part in the chain of prayers of Fridays and ask God to deliver me from fear. I was then able to open up about my ordeal and I shared it with a pastor’s wife who offered me counselling.
She also advised me to take part in the self-awareness course in the church. I was then able to put my past behind.
A complete change came when I decided to join the GW group. In the beginning I still felt insecure. I felt like I did not belong. But four months after joining, I experienced a breakthrough. I started opening up. I warmed up to the other ladies and even felt comfortable enough to speak during the meetings.
Then I formed friendships in the group. I have a best friend, something I had never had before. I was then given a personal task to forgive my perpetrator because I still held grudges against him even though I did not know him.
I realised that what happened to me cannot define who I am. With the tasks, I became closer to God and started understanding the word of God as never before. I made God the priority in my life.
I developed a change of attitude and now when people say I am beautiful, I believe it because It’s not only from the outside and I know it’s from within. I feel so light and free. I’m no longer trying to hide. I feel confident again.
I joined the evangelism group. I’m a BSC teacher. The insecurities are gone. At work my superiors used to say I was a ‘closed book’ that they didn’t understand. Now in this year they have started saying I have changed, that they trust me and feel free to give me more responsibility and my colleagues feel comfortable to let me lead our group.