Growing up, my sisters and I did not have a peaceful home because our parents constantly fought. My father was violent and we feared him. He abused my mother emotionally and physically when he was drunk.
I developed anger and hatred towards him. This affected my relationship with my sister, Thato. She could not talk to me because I was short-tempered and she could not correct me or help me deal with our family problems.
During school holidays I hated to be at home because it pained me seeing my father beating up my mother. I remember one day he beat my sister up and stabbed her in one leg with a bottle.
I blamed my mother because I did not understand why she could not protect us from the abuse.
My mother, Matauli, also blamed herself because we kept questioning her and she ended up thinking she was the reason our father abused us. I remember my mother said that she felt lost and couldn’t understand herself. That affected her so much that she had an inferiority complex. She was constantly angry, frustrated and insecure.
It was not until I joined Godllywood, that I realised how much my past had affected me. Godllywood helped me become a better woman and rebuild my relationship with my mother.
I was able to let go of the past and allowed the love of God to teach me to forgive myself and my father. I now have a good relationship with my mother, father and sisters.
Through the work of Godllywood, my family witnessed the changes in my life. Today I am a daughter that my mother can be proud of. I am patient and no longer have anger inside me. Most importantly, I had to find a way to forgive myself and to put my past behind and start a new life.
Not only I joined Godllywood, but my sisters and my mother, a 68-year-old woman, also joined the group. My Mothers has a new-found confidence that I have not seen in her for a long time, if ever! I can see that she values herself as a woman now.
Through the Godllywood monthly challenges, she overcame her frustrations, fears, doubts, complexes and insecurities.
About her experience in Godllywood, my mother said: “I received internal healing — something I never experienced in my life. What the Lord has done for me and my family is immeasurable. I was able to forgive my husband. We are now a happy family.”
Teboho Makae, Godllywood Member in Free State.